Last night I was awakened, by Landon's hurt/scared cry at 3 in the morning. I ran to his room to find his sitting up in the fetal position in the corner of his bead crying for mommy. As soon as I walked in I asked him what was wrong and in between sobs his scared little voice said "Piders!!" I quickly picked up my scared little boy and began the process of calming him down and showing him that there were no spiders in his bed and it was just a bad dream. after he clearing saw there were no spiders in his bed, we went to the living room to rock and I sang Jesus Love Me to him. This song and Ball for Baby are his favorites when getting ready for bed and being rocked. He was ready to go back to after that so we returned to his room and I began tucking him in bed. He said "No piders right mommy," and I explained again that there weren't any spiders and that they were all outside.
Over the last few months Landon has picked up the saying that spider eggs are biting him. I have no idea where he got this, so if any of you know, please enlighten me. I guess this fear of spider eggs biting him has turned into a fear of spiders.
After getting back in bed, I struggled to get back to sleep because I realized I had just missed an opportunity to teach Landon, that there is no reason to be afraid because Jesus is always with us and that when we're afraid we can just talk to him and he'll help us to not be afraid. After the fact this seemed like it should have been such an obvious response to his fear, but how can I expect myself to automatically teach how Jesus is always there when I don't allow him to be a constant in my life. Yes, I like to think that I try to do things as He would have me do them, but I'm failing miserably at seeking him daily.
Needless, to say it was a restless night. As a mommy, I have been given the ultimate gift of getting to mold this little person into a man who loves the Lord and will seek Him in everything he does. How can I do that if I'm not actively seeking God in my own life? I want to be more than a mommy who walks the walk because I know all the right things to do or not do. I want to be a mommy who can answer any questions that my little ones may have with confidence that no matter what they're in the midst of they will walk away with greater understanding that Jesus is there for them. I pray that I can move on from this point making changes in my life so I don't miss any more teachable moments.
Love this!
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